you're a mystery yourself

Monday, November 15, 2010

6:34 AM

Now, I've something to count down to... =D

Its currently 24 weeks till I see you!!! =S
Please come back soon. I really want you to come home. (tho I highly doubt that will ever happen)

Many things in life, we take for granted. And when we lose it, we fear, we cry, we panic, we don't function normally. Hence, I've decided to take the first step to make it all right.. to only know that I did it all wrongly. A fool proof plan was to work out just right and just as I imagined. it did not. only bringing me disappointment and I, seriously, did not feel so horrible in my life before, that I shake with fear, turned cold, and just cried in one corner.

I can't help but to think, is this all we can do? to see things go the way that it is going? Its like, if you were to see a rabbit on a fast rapid, will you save it or will you just let it go? After talking to people who cared.. they said, just let it go and make do with it. Is that how society has led us to think and be? What kind of culture are we embracing now? I'm confused. I really am confused.

Despite trying and trying, I fail, again and again. To the point where I don't know how to stand up and just remain crippled at the side. Thank God for some passerbys and people who truly care, they helped me stand up. Then again, I'm weak and if they were to let me go, I will crumble and fall and maybe even just die.

The moral of the story is this.. To me, i feel that no one in this world should and need to walk alone. There are people out there who are willing to help and are wanting to help. No one should ever walk alone.

Love someone today. And feel the love.
Love passionately. And feel the passion.
Love others like how you want it to be. And you will feel how you wanted to feel.
Love someone today. And feel the love.

Fairytales..

6:25 AM

Dear you,

There is so much feelings to tell you and I don't know where to start. I'll find a place to start anyway. =)

I miss you till I wanna die.. yes yes.. u will say I won't die. but hey.. seriously. not seeing u online for 2 weeks now really is a test. How are you feeling dear? are you feeling the same as I do?

There are many things that I wanna thank for keeping me sane... and I should give them some credit.
Thank you pillow... for cleaning my tears away. Thank you Tidbit... for being such an awesome substitute. It is not easy being a substitute. Thank you Lumpy... for being a great friend to Tidbit. Without you, I'm sure he will leave me. Thank you workload... for keeping me occupied and my mind off the long distance.

Lastly, and most importantly, thank you you. Thank you for being just there when i need you. Thank you for taking all my nonsense. Thank you for letting me call you all the time n be so demanding. Thank you for being my endless source of strength when I'm feeling down. Thank you for being ever so annoying, just to make me laugh. and THANK YOU for just being you.

I don't know how to express my feelings right now. The mixture of love and hate is just pure annoying and evil to my mind. I've just got one last thing to say to sum it all up.

I love you. I really really do.

Fairytales..

10:46 PM

WEEK 9 of school!!! WWEK 20 away!!

okay.. let me rant! its sickening!! so many assignments to do yet so freaking little time.. then again, i'm blogging. so what the heck! -.- anyways, just a little update about what is happening around. (not that anyone actually still reads my blog eh?) so....

1st update:
not bring to web every single night like a week ago is driving me insane. then again, i think this is a good plan. at least you can concentrate and study for ur exam while I, try to keep myself sane and complete my assignments. i miss you oh so much btw... and i hate this stupid distance apart! come back soon......

2nd update:
NIE is not giving us update!!! i wanna go on a holiday! i wanna book my tickets online, pack and go! sigh... i need NIE to tell me WHAT IS THEIR PLAN! sheesh! ohoh... some lessons are already over! (yeahness) can't wait for the rest to be done as well. I should really finish my essay. still stuck with NED 101. seriously.. this essay is so much harder than the essays I did in uni!!! wth!

3rd update:
i kinda miss working in TS. i want this diploma thingy to be over. at least in TS, i feel like i'm doing something. in NIE, i feel fat and round..stupid lecture style kinda teaching... sit all day long. *sigh* i feel like a rollly *whhheeee*

4th and last update:
there are.. *count.. 1..2...3..4...5..* I think there are 5 more assignments.. i'm looking for ppl to help me proof read my work! do a good deed if u feel that u haven been nice! =D *grins*

back to NED 101! ohoh.. did i tell u.. it won me!!!! never again will i do NED 101 AND NED 102! (i thot these mods will be the easier ones since its psych! i'm so wrong about it! goshhh)

Fairytales..