you're a mystery yourself

Sunday, April 20, 2008

12:39 AM

i've decided to put up another post. this time round its really gonna be a post. not the random photos, the random funny crazy acts, but more of.. yah.

so, i was reading this one person's blog just now. btw, i miss this girl alot. somehow, friends do come and go. i duno what is the relationship i have with her anymore. but i still miss her lots. been thinking of her quite a bit lately. we do not know each other tt well. at least, not to the extend that i will think of her at the very moment of crisis. nevertheless, she was my really good friend. i miss the time i talked to her on the phone over little probs. maybe, just a couple of times, where i really had no one to go to. she was my listening ear. then again, i duno if i was this impt to her. well, i guess, it comes to a point in time where we all move on.

looking thru photos from the past leaves me with this awkard feeling. mayb those were my happy times. what m i chasing for now?! why did i react in a certain way?! its all part of it i guess. i mean, those photos were so nice. so pure. everything just, u know, fall into place. but what seems to be missing in those photos at that time was forever. i duno. but forever seems really impt to me. i have friends whom i dun talk for a long long time and still get back from where we left of when we talk. i love having conversations like those.

so please girl, i hope u know its u.. tho many shit kinda happened. say.. u moved out. u never wanted to leave- at least at that time. but u seem all happy now at ur new place. plus, i heard of ur promotion somewhere last yr. congrets. i never got the chance to tell u personally. well.. we were waiting for u n the other friend to come back so that we will be tgt again.. but i guess, u are happy at where u are now. i dun ask for anything, but just remember that u had once a friend like me. treasure those memories u had when we hang out n all- tho its not alot. i miss u.

well.. this post seems to be really emo. but i guess, i really wanted to tell this person all this. i was always tt close to calling her but never got the guts. so i only hope that she reads my blog and got it. i dun think i make it obvious tho. ha. well.. its all God's plan. =)

Fairytales..

10:50 PM

so.. FCD is just around the corner. say, 10 days away?! yupp.. i'm so excited! =) anyhow.. pre FCD crazy stuff! omg... working with that 2 there is like ultimate craziness! seriously! they are really really really.. Blond! thanks hur...! =D

so one day in class.. singapore's skies play pranks on us singaporeans again. never seen such nice sunset. it took abt 30 mins for the sky to get totally dark. can't really see the nice colours from the pic tho. it was pink and yellow with tinch of blue n purple with much white n orange.

then one day.. i just had the craving for that food up there. hur hur. miss it quite a bit. had it after dinner as dessert! omg! did i tell u i m growing fatter each day!? it seems like i just put on 5kg!

one day... xinjian decided to pop into the store again.. then lavinia did.. n we decided to have NU! yah.. sounds wrong. HA! but it was fun.. i love NUs. all the stupid crappy jokes, trying to figer things out and yadda yadda. HAHA! that picture over there.. was taken by ahem.. me HAHA! well.. see, i made a mess with that "fence" and lavinia was being nice to help me put back.. and me being NICE too took a picture.. then xinjian n i ran away leaving her to be in tt position for say... 40secs?! HA! that was lots of fun!!! =D dun get angry lavinia!!! =)

the other pic.. well.. i was RUSHING my essay when i saw limin playing with BnJ balloon. yupp.. u got me right. well, she was like a seal.. using her hat and head to keep the balloon from touching the ground. AMUSING! omg..HA! that got me laughing SO hard while attempting to do that suicide essay which almost.. ALMOST got me into suicide! god! HA!

so, the week ends off with me, doing yet another research. one down, 3 to go. omg.. m i suppose to be happy?! i've been spending lots of money recently. like going out with yinkwan tt day to esplanade killed me! i shall keep quiet abt it.. HA! plus... bought things from F21.. which i think is very worth my $$.. so.. no complains on tt matter. have been trying out many good food. OMG!!! food in singapore is so not cheap! now.. i duno what is cheap... it seems like a meal can cost as much as a branded dress now! its just scary! =(

anyhow... its back to work now! omg!!!! help!

Fairytales..

11:14 AM

the saying goes.. "what goes around comes around"

now, the situation!
a friend was mean to me. but i guess, she really didn't know she was being mean. but anyhow, i was mean back to her. so.. the saying is right.. what goes around for HER comes around for HER! then again.. i was being mean.. so what goes around for ME comes around for ME! do i make any bit of sense here!?

i wanna say i'm sorry. but guess what? screw it. i dun think i should. i've been thinking. plays of possible situation have been playing in my head. for various reasons, i would say that its like the angel and devil trying to talk things out among themselves n me off course. now, dun be scared abt what i just said. i mean like in cartoons you watch when u were younger or even now.

n it has been true, friends come and go. only true friends stay. cliche?! yah.. very much. but still, i do believe in it. funny how we believe in stuff that we deemed as cliche eh? anywayz, my circle of friends is that small but i m making NO effort to keep it that way, instead i would rather lose some friends. adding on, i would make a good fucking bitch if i had kept them. i'm not saying that i'm the good girl here now. but seriously, i think it was the last straw in that case. then again, i hate to just lose friends.

dear all, see how confused i am again? i duno how things will work out btw my friend and i now. but whatever the case is, it definitely is going with the wonderful karma saying. and dear all... its the end.

i.. rest my case!

Fairytales..

11:15 PM

I LOST MY DIARY! omg..

dear you!
have fun in NS! i'll see u soon! =D

So.. how should i describe school now?! its kinda a bitch lar. i have NO MOOD to start anything.. i lost my motivation to even start studying for anything. I know i have to do all the studying and all.. PLUS.. i have a MAJOR essay due nx friday. and yes.. the KAN CHEONG spider have not started on anything! thank you very much hur. i guess, its real time for me now to sit back and think what the heck i want to do with my life and finally get started with work.. somehow, there is something in me that dun want to start.. the kan cheong spider in me is hibernating man!!!!!

the lost of my handbook is NOT making anything better! like seriously. i have all my brain storm stuff in there.. but its only for social psych. god!!!! okay.. i need to calm down and THINK! what the heck should i do tmr?! time is RUNNING OUT!

btw.. i still can't get back to that track. i miss being stick n stinky! *yewwww!* sorry.
i pray that i can go back running soon! =X

Fairytales..

10:41 AM

i guess, i'm a slow learner to social stuff. not about school work now. more on literal! anywayz, its on the basis of trust. TRUST babes (n hunks)!

a little note to the person i'm refering to:
hey you,
you have been such a pain in my life. thank you very much for all the "research" u did. it helped me so much. but guess what? its nothing glourious! with u publicly washing all my pretty ugly things, do u think i will appreciate your help? oh.. i forgot, u did it on ur own accord! thanks but seriously, no thanks! so.. here's a little msg to u, please stop being such a pain in the butt! i very much appreciate that more then u glorifying urself all the time at the expense of me being greatly humiliated.

once again, i'm in class doing every other things but listening to my tutor. HA! i realise that there is 894759836 things to study and i so really have to start right now! like TODAY! and yes, i will be doing something about studying soon. now.. where should i study? i don't like to study at home, got too much distractions. i dun think BnJ is a good idea too. =P ha!

BnJ news!!!!!

FREE CONE DAY(with that ice cream!)
29th APRIL 2008
12pm-7pm
(Great World City, United Square,
Raffles City, The Cathay)
ONE DAY EVENT ONLY!

going to listen to class now! =X

Fairytales..

8:52 PM

i have been very much slacking these days. i think i should go to school. not going to school leads to slacking at home, even tho i know that i have to do like 8375o16 work! yesterday, wanxin gave me the biggest shock of my life- assignments are due in 2 weeks. i'm half a sememster away from graduation and yes, this is scaring the shit out of me. what m i going to do after i graduate man? i have an extra one yr to think wht i want to do due to that postgrad year. am i ready for what is to be thrown at me? something psychological maybe?!

the other day, i had a netball game. tho difRays lost, i guess, we are all happy with the score and the way we played. we haven been doing any court work and in the end, we played real hard. 15 in quaters! we have never done that long for 1 quart. thats a great achievement. i'm proud of u team! on the other hand, i hate it when people do stupid things. adding on, she embarassed me. what am i to do? i realise that after that incident, i don't want to talk to her anymore. everytime i see her, i tend to just look away. what am i to do?!?!

i'm at BnJ now, doing my researches and decided to blog after trying really hard to find articles. omg.. i'm tired. it makes me wonder sometimes tho, why do i do somethings that i can't comprehand, understand or even realise tat i'm doing it. subconsciously i believe, i still want to help her. but i believe, lerdership and fertigue is taking over more then my EQ. i'm not bothering anymore.

now back to research.

Fairytales..