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Monday, October 29, 2007

10:55 AM

i'm listening to australia radio channel- 973fm.. feel good! HAHA! cool station actually. little talking lots of music.

a long week. the 8 weeks of pure mugging starts from today! n i seriously mean it this time. only 8 week of school and tada exam and all the breaks! gosh.. i kinda miss school actually. as in STC. prob 3 yrs back, was mugging for Os. not realy mugging lar.

and so... i'm packed till the end of the yr! thank you very much.

Fairytales..

1:00 PM

i m living in this state of confussion again. and now, its been sorted. tho not by the person that i would have loved to give me the right and perfectly logical answer. and so.. i've concluded. what were you saying? ah yes.. "the time when u wanna give up it will only come."

so.. it really scares me now that i kinda know what went on. the issue that i thot was suppose to be a happy thing turns out to be horrible. its hard to hear and harder to accept. i thot everything was FINE. but sadly.. thanks to me talking to some ppl who made a difference in my life today tt told me its not fine at all. its something tt i have to understand and to prevent it from happening again. but seriously, i feel happy tt time. and i really hope tt person know what he/she was doing. it scares me quite abit now.

my eye stil hurt.. from all the chopping of onions. 3 more days to school start! i'm spending money again. total cost of books is appx $200 bucks. thats abt one mth's pay if i work at BnJ. oh gosh.. i can't wait for school to start. but at the same time, i can wait forever for it to start. see how things in my life contradicts? its an irony.

Fairytales..

11:13 PM

my timetable is revised AGAIN! gosh.. now, its WORST! but at least i planned. n i get ONE day OFF SCHOOL! n i can work also. tho i guess, its gonna be TIRING! yawns. AHAHA! anywayz.. photos man!!! it was a surprise! THANK YOU!

ahhh.. so cute lar!!!! teddy is called snacks! =D n see that card?! its WONDERFUL man! its AMAZING!

i thot i m off psych for a while.. BUT justin just can't let me not forget about psych.. so heres a lab report abt me! justin!!! u score 10/10! HAHA! =D

and i decided to invest on the 5th film soundtrack! good stuff man!!! =D love it lots!!!

love this day.. n i have snack just like how lavinia have frights! =P

Fairytales..

1:10 AM

i'm feeling a little emo now. i duno why eh..
GERALDINE!!! i love talking to u. please call me!!! =D

it only takes ONE person to start talking to another person to get a conversation.
it only takes ONE person to care to let u know that ur being loved.
it only takes ONE person to to ask a question to get to know the other person better.

the greatest love song started with ONE note.
the greatest love affair started with ONE word.
the greatest idea started with ONE thought.
the greatest painting started with ONE stroke.

maybe.. it could just turn out to be this way.

its raining really heavily out there... its now 130am. and i wonder if ur home. how are u gonna get home? are u going home?! i love the rain. just listen to it.

Fairytales..

9:34 PM

those that taste sweeter sinks. pour slowly la!! it will give you nice layering.

just remember this when i was suppose to start piano homework after 2 hours of sleeping. yawns. this was mentioned at dempsey yesterday. from the bar tender. er... whats his name again lavinia?! somehow, sweetness sinks. which is good right? haha. i went for a little shopping with mummy today. bought birthday STUFFS! yes.. lots actually. it sums up to abt 100 plus. thank you mummy! and all the wishes and birthday messages from all you friends out there. thank you so much! =) its been a WONDERFUL birthday! i'm nineteen!!!

Fairytales..

11:55 PM

pop by at Dempsey!!! jojo working!!! HAHA! n that... THAT BLUE THINGY.. is called MEATBALLS! so cuteeeeeee........ =P

Ivan made this drink! forgot what its called but its nice.. lavinia made one too!!! i dun like that. AND!!! i forgot to take a pic of it. =X

and this my friend... its IGUANA BREEZE something link Singapore Sling. but nicer! HAHA! its pretty strong. I'M OKAY! muahahaha!

FUNFUN day!!! now.. back to homework! =S

Fairytales..

11:45 PM

it was a wonderful night..

happy birthday to me! =)

Fairytales..

8:16 PM

its chicken! i took hours eating this. was laughing and talking most of the time! HAHA!

Hilda and me! not the glamness photo we took! haiz. ALL UR FAULT HILDA!

okay... chermaine STUDIED! =) i did stats! woot! i understand what i read! which is a good! SEE LAVINIA MOM.. i understand stats! (so far) haha! =) n so.. i will have to do piano now. -.- okay.. counting down again. one more paper to go! yayness! n than its piano. it feels so funny now. its 2 weeks away! -nods- which also means that jacinta's party is in 2 week's too! sigh..... affair is going away to work. hate it. sounds like adults. catherine is going back to UK next week too! somehow i wish that the doctor did not give her the go ahead. STAY PEOPLE! brighter side, jasmine is coming home! =) n christmas is coming! oh.. n my timetable SUCK for nx sem. here's why.

okay.. its not very clear. cuz i'm a dummy with this stuff.. =( HAAH! but in any case.. my time table suck! n my driving test is coming again!!! n i still need a tan! i'm so busy ar!

-STUDY-

Fairytales..

9:17 AM

in the mist of doing my piano homework, i got lost. so lost.. i duno what am i doing to get me so lost. and so.. i've decided to blog.. HAHA! i'm working tomorrow..! yawns.. n i'm not sleeping yet. i hope i remember to wake up man! =P oh yes.. i need dress! hmm.. n i bought 2 blouse today! went to hog's breathe with HILDA CHANG! n went shopping!!! woot! love love love it all! =)

back to piano. =X

Fairytales..

11:11 AM

i can't get down to studying. something is bothering me. with all the power of language i have in the world, i choose to use it on someone who once mean alot to me. it stil hurts. but now, that is not the issue anymore. so..

dear _____,
you once told me that u let me know everything. i feel special. to know that i have such a close relationship/friendship/ kinship(delete wichever as u wish) with you. people said that i m always on this topic. i don't know why too. maybe its because u played a vital role in my live. *ya right* than u start to critisize my friend! my FRIEND! a friend that will not go against me, talk bad about me or to say that i suck for another friend! i think your a bimbo/bitch. i've finally seen your true colours and i am not at all worried about how we are gonna be in future. words are cheap! you said you don't want things to turn sour. but well.. i've been using n taking all the initiative for months! and yes.. i would rather not have this relationship/friendship/ kinship with you at all. so now, you found yours and i found mine. we are going our seperate ways. tho it hurts me so much to let it all end (finally). i pray for the best. not for you.. but for all the boys that will be hurt in the process cuz knowing you, you will hurt quite a bit. so.. all the best.

okay.. thats sounded ought. but whatever. i had the best night of my live yesterday. on MSN with jojo is the best.. i love fairytales! *zap zap zap* i played evil villian! well.. evil villians always win right? but jojo won.. -.- with WORDS! gosh.. anywayz.. i also played princess with hilda.. n played villian with lavinia too.. but lavinia.. HAHA!! she got lost halfway. so.. we resort to normal talking. -.- HAHA! so heres the conv..

Cherm: YO WOMAN!! Hilda is suppose to go out with the oh so princessy chermaine on friday! and by royal orders, its a must to go! *trumpet*
Hilda: ok... must i bring fireworks?
Cherm: HAHA! i love fireworks.. but wait.. dun carry it with you okay. later ppl think ur a terrorist!
Hilda: ..............................
Hilda: i think your insane. mad.
(well the conv go on. but i can't remember.. i only remember this!)

for the conv with jojo. HAHA! let her post it up n i will post it here. she copied it. but i forgot! =( so yupp.. tatafornow! =P

LEARNING!!! HERE I COME!!! *poof!*

Fairytales..

8:25 PM

had my first paper n tada! it suck so big time! gosh.. never ever again m i gonna feel like that in the exam hall.. its like... "what is appraisal!??!" yah.. thats the question EVERYONE ask AFTER the exam.. gosh.. jill drives me up the wall.. so.. now done with one paper! 2 more to go. learning is hmm.. not helping alot either.. i need my Ds! yay..-.- work hard chermaine! gosh.. u know.. its draining me man! plus all the piano. haiz.. n yes.. i hate that principle! she is irritating me! grr!!!!

oh wells. i just remembered.. i have a livejournal account. right.. n i'm not using it. hmm.. i can't even blog here CONSISTANTLY!!! what more having another account. COUNTDOWN to many things i tell u.. lets state...
- jasmine coming home! yayness
- me going for a tan at lavinia's place.. which is like on thurs! yayness too!
- me gonna go out with hilda on friday! yayness also!
- hmm.. one day closer to end of exam! yay!
- going clubbing. yes... i'm slow! -.-
- starting of a new sem! i love new sems! yay!!
- hmm... getting closer to piano exam.. which means ending of exam! yay!! YAY!
thats about it actually! HAHA! not alot actually! =P

i wanna swim with dolphins! i wanna swim with dolphins!!!!! -grins-

PS... AFFAIRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! can u call me?! affair misses affair! =( ur gonna go soon! come to jurong (extension) lar!!! i will move to woodlands if i have to! =)

Fairytales..

10:10 PM

FIRST PAPER TOMORROW!!!!

health psych.. gosh... should i laugh or cry now! its like i know everything but not. gosh... i feel so slack n i feel so.. hmm... knowing everything somehow. this is not good. is it because health psych is more of.. say, common sense? like health n people.. stress and coping dadada.. yawns... in any case.. i'm still gonna go read up more on it.. i dun feel safe. just got the news from some books.. the trip to cairns will have to postpone! thanks to the kinda weather we will be getting over at cairns in the month of may which is appearently the highest amount of rainfall and about the hottest month. many cruise tour will be close too due to the monsoon. haiz.. so much about planning people! we'll have to see to it again when the time gets a nearer. wat about going in june? haiz.. than i will have financial difficulties! wat a bother...

back to health psych. =)

Fairytales..

11:47 PM

update b4 i start studying piano. acutally.. its b4 i do my piano homework. HAHA!

to this someone..
its okay to fail! really. try again. like me lar.. i fail my theory.. now have to do again. go concentrate what u have to concentrate for now ba! =) leave the keys alone for now. toss all tao gays away. hoho~

okay.. so.. recently, people think that i'm emoing. well people.. i'm not emoing. just thinking quite abit lar. like whats the purpose of me doing a degree, making friends whom dun keep in touch and say "friends forever" and yes.. about my side road. at least i've moved on right? HAHA! on top of that.. its exam period. if u know chermaine by now, exam=stress=emo! so yupp.. thats where 30% of emoing comes from. haha! so i miss 2 ppl from my previous post. dun try figuring out who they are. u many know them u may not. so.. just put in what u wanna put in.

know how i make myself feel better during exam? this is what i say "ONE DAY closer to the END of EXAM! yayness" anywayz.. after i say that, then i remember that i have piano exam one week after. lets just say that i m more prepared than the other time. but i'm still now. so help! well.. thats if u know piano lar...

got really tired of working these days. francis msg me say tt ppl dun wanna buy cake cuz i destroyed it! come'on man!!!! his pandan cake sold off! whats my "extra" design to his design gonna make any difference? it still is horrible. anywayz.. haven been really working at BnJ. exams lar.. HAHA!

i've thought abt postgrad recently and decided that i should go overseas to do it! please.. i think i have to. anyone wanna sponsor this poor girl? haha! =P wat i wanna do is only slightly different from what i'm studying now. i hope its what i really want man! oh wells.. its abt 5-6 yrs after.. where should i work after 09? hmmm.. JASMINE!!! will u be back by than to WORK WITH ME?!hahahhaha =)

i need a tan! i m fair!!!! not like tofu.. mayb like slightly fried beancurd. haha!!! lavinia would ask me to shut up now. SORRY MOM! =P was day dreaming about jacinta's party just now.. shit i tell u.. i should not even start day dreaming about it.. now i can't stop. wth.. i'm still fat to wear anything nice for my 2 cousin's wedding ON THE SAME MTH!!! one week apart! how sweet! =) meeting my ENTIRE family tree again.. those that i NEVER meet b4! gosh. how i just simply love this kinda stuff! -.-

anywayz now... pianopiano!! =) loving it i guess. motivated! HAHA!!

*ps.. scared for health psych n learning n behviour exam.. lets add stats to the list too!! thats EVERYTHING! omg... i'm doomed right? =X

Fairytales..

11:02 PM

what have i been doing these days..
-piano
-Grey's anatomy. (thanks cat)
-study
-and more of the above.
at least i have GA to accompany me.

i m missing people now. let me mention about them.. n if ur not mentioned please please please.. not that i'm not missing you but its cuz i think of u so much that ur not missing from my head. haha.
- i m missing the person who made an impact in my live during sec 3 and 4. where have u gone to now after u found the important thing in your life? come back to me. nono.. us. not only me missing u but the entire population (if u understand) miss u too. call us.
- i m also missing this one person so much. she is no more in my head recently. are we drawing further apart? please don't. i know ur busy. but you seem to have lots of social life. so i guess ur very happy with things. no matter what.. please remember me.

its october already. yawns. how time really knows how to fly. does time have brain??

i m still at the side road waiting. i was advise to go and have a drink and/or salad at the fastfood outlet 1km ahead of me. now.. should i go? or should i stay?

magic works.......

Fairytales..

11:50 PM

everyday of our live
wanna find you there wanna hold on tight
gonna run while we're young
and keep the faith
everyday from right now
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
take my hand
together we will celebrate

Fairytales..

10:09 PM

it was nice to hear S Club song on radio yesterday.

have you ever love and lost somebody
wish there was a chance to say i'm sorry...
have you ever felt your heart was breaking
looking down the road you should be taking..

well.. an old song. 2nd album i think. nice tho. =) i'm currently studying health psych. yawns. i duno where to start. (tho i already started!) haha! in any case, i haven hear from sone humans for the longest time ever. at least, it seems long to me. but anywayz, chermaine feels fat. i've been thinking alot lately. stupid things sometimes. like would i ever... n will i ever.. all the frequent day dreamings. its like its part of me already. dreaming......... haha.

lets get started with studying for finals. yawns =X

Fairytales..