you're a mystery yourself

Friday, March 30, 2007

11:41 PM

have been studying. but seriously... at the rate i'm going, i will never finish anything. hmm.. mayvina came ofter to my place n cook lunch for me! how sweet!! =) nice lunch!! tknx alot!! oh yes. chermaine is going for umpiring course. its being paid for. i duno who's paying it. but i really thank that person for giving me this chance. i know its nothing big to u all lar. but seriously.. i think n hope this is one step closer to what i desire! =) its such a mayvina n study day today! =) mayvina cooked, came over to my place, now her jeans is dropping, drinking her tea now, studied anatomy (which btw suck), studied a little of driving. tomorrow, its working day again. got the news from xinyi that i got 2 V'day cake to do.. hmm.. this is so interesting! =) oh man.. the days are closer now!! i m still stuck with my driving!!

how now brown cow??

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11:01 PM

i'm a little confused with things. tell me..

why and how can people change their attitude of things so fast!? is it because of the situation, the people, the environment or is it just because they are built that way. is it also because we r living in singapore and therefore, being in a city, we go places so fast that we are stressed out all the time? do we know how to chill out to begin with? i dun understand... how come when a lady is pissed of, they rattle on.. they go shoe shopping, they eat tons n tons? and the best part is.. they bear grudges and they will remain angry n pissed n carry the sign "do not talk to me" for days... why??

why too..i observed that sorry is so hard to say? especially in the asian countries? like.. is it really hard to say sorry when u do somthing wrong? why do kids in singapore not say sorry when they hit some one? instead.. they run to their mama n mama has to say sorry. n why do parents in singapore so fast to protect their children in most cases or fast to scold the child when they do not know what was actually happening? is this what we call singapore culture? is this how we want our kids to be brought up in? kids learn things really fast and they will pick these up. everyone knows that. but then why again, do parents show these actions infront of their kids? thinking that they do not understand a single thing? i'm facinated by all the contradictions that we singaporeans are living in.

why do they say that being an educator is the hardest job? the kids? the school? the environment or is it just the status? do u see now how environment is playing a vital role in every issue i'm talking about? why so they say that kids are hard to handel in school these days? is it the system? the govt? or is it the parents and the principle pushing these poor kids to the limits? why is it that there is exams and when we dun do well, parents will scold, ground etc. the kids? then again.. what is doing well.. can it be measured? with me getting a high distinction in a freaking screwed up subject, i can get remarks from my parents that its not good enuf. or things like.. get all HDs for all the other subjects.. dun slack OR ELSE.. whats up with singaporeans and the OR ELSE? at least my mom was proud of me doing well for the 1st time! thats so not the point! my point here now is.. why is singapore such a stressful place? n the best thing is.. we dun have psychologist to help this country out!!! where has all the psychologist gone too?

being in this major let me realise the importance of knowing people. how to handle situations. but then again... is it useful? usually.. people who enters psychology or has a career in it faces lots of trouble at home. take this for an eg.. i know a family where its broken.. not that the dad n mom is seperated. but.. the boy in the household has turned super bad and go against his parents and now.. he's under his usual potential. is this now.. the wonders of the dad who is appearently a psychologist? are psychologist so philosophical that kids can turn bad? whatever the dad studied in school, is it now correct when he uses it on his kid? if so.. then y the kid turned bad? to us.. the kid is bad.. but to the kid.. is it a form of attention because he did not get any from his family or is it just because of the environment? of course.. there are other options.

now.. is it rude to say something u really want to let it out to someone? well.. as far as i know in the singapore context.. letting out in a horrible way is called rude. how about in the western countries? is letting out a good thing? what if the person letting out his anger this very day was because he/she had a bad day. do we still consider that as being rude? know how parents love to tell their kids.. "don't u be rude" whats rude? to talk back? but talking back is a form of delivering ur ideas and voicing out in case there is better ideas right? so.. now.. whats rude?

u know.. there are so many issues that i love to touch on n get ur feedback. but i think this is enuf to let all of u know that chermaine is confused and YES i want to hear ur views! please drop me a tagg or mail me! =)

love,
chermaine

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1:19 PM

HELLO!!! my blog is OKAY!!!! =) now u all relink!!! =P ttfn!

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1:26 AM

i've change my blog skin. i so hope it works now! HAHA!
oh wells... its still a little weird.. will get it all fixed up soon!! =)
when i find the time that is! till than.. TOODDERS!

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11:00 PM

chermaine had a really fun n exciting day until at night. lets blog the fun stuff 1st.

met samuel at 9am! n did the evironmental assignment. tell u.. environmental psych is so fun! tho it sounds like what kerry anne will say, HAHA.. to talk to trees! but anywayz..this is so cool!!! the difference is SO distinct! =) i hope i will get full marks for this man! =) thank you samuel again! after.. we had breakfast at BnJ!! n chermaine was late!! for the first time for opening. mayb its the 1st 1st time also eh. hmm... the next best thing is to have eliza to work with me.. n mayvina to help me do opening. so happy for they are always there! =) u know.. friends r like so impt sumtimes.. i dun want to lose any of u!! getting alittle emo here. HMMM! anywayz.. work was really fun!! i'm sorry pam... someday, it will come! =)

the day went on all gaga n fun n all so wonderful.. i will say that this day is the best day ever... spending time with friends i love n module i would hope to major in in future! n not forgetting work at BnJ! but things turn ugly when janice n francis were in the stall. it seems like its ALL my fault that the stall is doing all so no good. but seriously.. janice..yes its true n i really dun respect him. not a single bit. in any case.. this is a day that turned bad in the end. thought its gonna be the best day ever! if u need details.. ring me or talk to me. i dun want to say anymore here.

good day which turned bad.

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11:58 PM

moses, yy, me n louisa! =) the four who shared 3 chairs! =)

xinyi n me!!! YES!!! crazying! =P

my dinner!!! OMG!! its super good! =)

the hand to scare aizah!!! HAHAHAHA! i bet it will work!!

xinyi can't spray whipped cream! poor thing!! =(

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10:47 PM

test test again!!! gosh.. think my blog got prob eh!!! =(

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11:50 PM

chermaine has been thinking of that horrible coach she had when she was in sec4.. or was it sec 3. whatever the case is.. she's horrible. i duno why the sudden i will think about her. mayb its cuz i m too wanting to get my team going. its freaking stagnent. GOD help me. everytime i think abt her.. i will only remember about the time we play the angel n mortal game. and the other time when she literally sent me home! gosh.. i m still thinking.. why in the world i got send home n i really did go home! i was dumb!! seriously dumb. at the end of the day, those ppl who also got "sent home" stayed on n went back to the team to play! why was chermaine so freaking dumb?!anywayz.. i seriously think it was dumb to get sent home. n went home. what the hell was i thinking!

the angel mortal game was WORST! i bought 2 cookies from the canteen and its like 1.80 bucks each. i also bought a nice box to put in it.. top it up with a nice hand written letter. why did chermaine buy things from the canteen and give to her? cuz i HEARD from JAMIE the suppose STUCK UP that she LOVE the cookies from that aunty. i.. not being so freaking stuck up to the coach just follow what the stuck up ppl say she likes. thats it! anything wrong! NO! n then.. i got the saying FROM JAMIE!!!!! that i was being so CHEAPO!!! thank you very much!

argh... nothing can be worst with that coach! she suck BIG TIME! never allowing me to play in the matches.. not even friendly! the only thing she said nice was.. "chermaine.. u got a very huge stretch range for ur size" and my reply was.. "is it good or bad.." then she said" good.. as a shooter.. u need to stretch alot.!" thats like the ONLY thing thats NICE from her. n now.. forget it.

as for today.. chermaine went to crash anatomy lecture at NUS!! suppose to HELP me.. HAHA! but i already know all the stuff that was taught! n mayvina calls it a REINFORCEMENT!i love the food at NUS! its NICE n good! n i m still craving for ice cream! not BnJ thank you! i got too much BnJ ice cream that i want the economical once. yawns.. then met yati.. okay.. HMMM!! shes itneresting man!! n yes! i am SO gonna crash psych lect SOON!! YES!!! okay.. vivian calls it nothing better to do but yupp.. i want to study like hell lotta things to study but i can't down to it. dun ask y.. i duno...

now its sleeping time! toodders!

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11:42 PM

my 200th post! WOW!!!hmm.. hope i will be able to carry this numbers! i remember how i once gave up on my blog. gosh.. it was hard! HAHA! oh wells. worked today n guess what? yes.. its that phase of the year again where i turn to shut off wateverfrancis have to say. well.. it happens a few times in a year lar. no choice see. =P oh yes.. pictures.. random pics for my random friends like me! HAHA!

not suppose to be like that but yes! OKAY!!! =P...... pam jasmine n me! =)

cuzzy lim n me!!! =)

mummy lavinia, aizah, cuzzy jojo n me!!! =) at a party which started LATE n ended LATE!!

okay.. HANNAH!!! yes.. the person that sat on my right. n therefore.. the pic is a little funny! =P

alrights ppl!!! now... chermaine is gonna go sleep. n dream.. mayb there will be ep 4? prob tis a series?!! OH MAN!!! so exciting! tomorrow at scoop u!!! gonna love all the ppl!!! will teach u all the haffalump song when i learnt it. =)

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10:31 AM

i dreamt of that very same scene 3 times
the very 1st was when i just pass by ur supposed house. (its a dream.. ur hse is to what i assume it is right?haha!)
the 2nd was when i entered ur hse. just the garden part. hoping that u will see me n invite me in.
now, the 3rd time.. i went into ur hse and i was waiting for u for hours.
u came home from trng finally and we went to do some shopping.
u drove me in ur high class car.
we were laughing so much that i thot we were alr _____. oh wells.
as i said, its just a dream.
freud is probably right about my conscious n subconscious.

what i really hope for now is that u will be my very close friend.
so close that i know u personally.
i hate it when i feel so distance with someone like u.

away from the point. chermaine skipped another 1k yesterday! still feel so heavy! gosh. i m trying but its so not helping! oh whatever. kinda give up hope lar. okay.. chermaine loves her classes so far. its brilliant! its heavy but yet.. i think its great! brain n behaviour is not that bad as i thot eh. HAAH! n stats.. hmm.. eric said only T test n Z test. not that bad eh!! AHAH! oh wells. i hope this sem will be a blast! =)

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11:10 AM

what will u be doing at 12 am?

chermaine was talking to cuzzy..
thinking how in the world should she do the schedule!
anywayz... what will u do when ur hungry?
eat... but what if its in the night??
think.. think about an ellifant!!!
now think of a purple ellifant..
now eat it...
"it taste like grape!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!"
right cuzzy... grape flavoured ellifant.. -_-
now what will u say if chermaine tells u she study in JCUS?? okay.. james cook uni singapore
yali was smart to think i m a cook! right...
anywayz.. chermaine prounounce it as cooker!
stress cooker has been upgraded to pressure cooker!!!
"people at the happy office.. chermaine is kind and nice to buy u a pressure cooker so that all of u will go healthy. please approach jolene's sit for ur very own pressure cooker! "
now what will u do when u think a joke is funny?
laugh... but please!!! dun learn from pressure cooker!!! i almost died!
the sudden BURST of laughter from nowhere.. then...
SILENCE
then MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
got a fright a few times! =) pressure cooker can help u loose weight! =P
silence.... burst of laughter!!!
spongebob said b4 that u cannot finish using all ur laughs from ur laughing bag.. if not ur gonna be crying all the time!
so laugh for all u want darling pressure cooker. just stop sometimes. cuz i want to hear u laughing again.. =)
chermaine was so happy to talk to cuzzy with all the things she dun like n love.
u got the attached face. so please go find another pressure cooker to be attached to!
chermaine wants to be ur camera woman for that very pretty cuzzy wedding day. =)
i m starting to love the song "lumpy lumpy lumpy lumpy lumpy lumppp"
"bloop"... the bubble burst.. nah-uh.. its the sound of a tennise ball hit against the racket!!
anywayz... yesterday night was filled with laughter with my purple lumpy pressure cooker from the happy office!
love u pressure cooker!!!
PS.. if pressure cooker tells u that i'm rice cooker.. just tell that thing to shut up.. HAHA! cuz chermaine is chermaine... n i can't be a rice cooker cuz i dun eat so much rice!! =P

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9:07 PM

guess who i saw today!!! jacqueline lim!!! HMMM.. small world eh. yupp.. AT MY SCHOOL!!! okay.. not really a good thing to say it out loud eh?! its like hello!! she's WORKING there n chermaine is studying there! GOSH!! i tell u.. we r like same age n its freaking weird please! ARGH! okay.. went for lunch today with classmates! made new friends today! yes yes.. tge cheerful me made new friends! =) grins... bronzson ring me today. right. not somehting i actually expected. but oh wells! =P chermaine now wonders many many things.. like... hmm.. i forgot again. why do i always forget things?!?! TELL ME WHY!!?i did 1000 skippings today! great accomplishment man!!! HAHA! thinking that chermaine don't exercise for a long long long time alr. HOHO! oh wells... i tell u.. its fun man!!! =) skipping 1000.. hmm.. its tiring but HEY!! its suppose to do some cardio thing. i forgot what is it again. oh yes.. JCU is out in the papers AGAIN!! n WTH.. they are offering scholarship to people in singapore to study in JCUS! okay.. crap! i need scholarship! oh.. the brilliant thing is too... that everyone passed py1102!!! HURRAY!!! chermaine dun need to do exploring psych ALREADY!! know how dreadful is exploring modules!?!? -shake heads- oh yes.. JCUS is in the news again!!! HAHA! we need a new campus!!! seriously.. i hope i can get to use it. =) everytime i m in a school.. i dun use the new campus at all!! know how sickening is that?! the best thing is when u have to ask ppl to donate n u dun even sit on the funitures!! only smell n see! grr.. roars! okok... chermaine is in grumpy mood again!! HAHA! all the stats is making me go GAGA!! tooders! =)

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12:44 AM

The starfish story.

Nurture.

i m feeling so horrible again. its so terrible. everyone did so well for As.. okay.. as far as i know. but the point now is.. OMG! okay. i will just shut up. not a good day today even tho i spend time with mayvina doing something i longed to do for weeks. i thank god for him to give me patience so that i will not have blast into ppl's face. thank you god too for keeping my cool man!

i m just thinking again about teaching. now, i see many people thinking what to do after their As. they are pretty much confused. it makes me think also. tho i have a job alr. what the hell m i gonna do with psych?! okay. yes.. there are TONS of things i can do but hey.. i seriously still wanna teach. in a govt school or as a tutor? okay... i m confused too. in any ways, i m still not using my psych. gosh.. i m confused. ur not alone jas.. think i will need to go see a career psych for this man! HOHO.

see that girl over a the top?? yes.. Nurture ppl. everyone in this world needs someone to be with them. every single one is not bad by nature. its how u see them to be. kids need someone to guide them. follow them with every step they take and watch them grow into fine young adults! why m i telling u all this?? let me put it this way. its not only kids that needs to be guided. friends too. i realise that there are many things that are given to someone who knows how to do things and they are placed responsible for it. and hence, to nurture the others. haiz. okay.. mayb the starfish story will help a little.

the starfish story. by MOE

as the old man walked the beach at dawn, he noticed a boy ahead of him peacking up starfish and flinging them into the sea. finally catching up with the boy, he asked why was he doing this. the answer was that the stranded starfish would die if left until the morning sun. "but the beach goes on for miles and there are millions of starfish", said the old man. "how can ur effort make any difference?" the boy looked at the starfish in his hand and then threw it safely intot eh waves. "it makes a difference to this one."

people.. nurture. find patience. i m not telling u to go be a teacher and make a difference. in ur everyday live, do something nice. be patient when teaching. all are equal. everything will be great and the world will be a better place. i know it sounds freakingly cliche but hey. its true right? thing about it.

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1:00 AM

chermaine's timetable is screwed! big big time! gosh.. i wish there isn't any changes. worked with mayvina today! OMG.. i m high man!!! HAHA! oh wells.. today 3 sets of humans came n complain that out music is TOO loud! hmm.. i think its ALRIGHT! =)

i m being so nice now to help some ppl!! HAAH! yes... O levels posting will be out soon!! all the best man!!! n yes!!! tomorrow is the results for As... oh so scary!!! i m tired! OH NO!! this is such a lousy post that i dun want to carry on alr. THANK YOU!

mayvina says that i m a turtle!! oh so cute! =)

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