you're a mystery yourself

Thursday, June 29, 2006

12:49 AM

yawns. got to work tomorrow again. n its at suntec. hmm.. will be meeting jori tomorrow to collect the money for the charity thingy. hahah!! thanks jori!! hmm.. i love doing charity work. somehow i feel good about it. its like.. helping others when they need help. not just to poor ppl. i love simply just helping ppl! omg.. i think i m nuts. oh wells.

training this sat. think i m gonna love it. but hate it at the same time. most of the team is coming down. somehow, i just dun feel good about everything. mayb its just her hindering everythingy. gosh. i want my team to be up there. i want to have an accomplishment in my life. i want this to be what i m successful for. the fact that ppl think i can't do it. i want to prove to them.. i can!! but ppl like her is totally hindering everything i do. i wanna get her out. but i dun have the reasons to. oh man!! this is really testing my patients.

i need advice for my team again! jas says i need a vice cap. for this matter.. i totally agree.. but both my exco is really helping me out.they r really putting in their 100%. but u see. they will not be free next year to help me out. they will be super busy man!! oh no!! then i will be all alone again. n i will not have an exco. then i will have to work myself. alrights.. so be it man!!! i m doomed!

crap.. someone just slap me hard. wake me up! i need to concentrate on my piano already! what rubbish m i doing for my piano man! i m like so lagging behind! oh man!! its like.. i wanna get good grades. but i know i can't. but i wanna push myself. but i can't. SLAP ME! i wanna do well in my uni. hmm... i wanna top the class! i wanna be the genius!! i wanna take a honour degree! i wanna be the best! i wanna this i wanna that!!! I KNOW I can!??!?! pouts! this is really seriously draining!! really!

oh man!!! its friday already! close to 1am now. feel so energetic! i wanna go swimming. i wanna play netball. i wanna sprint. i wanna run. i wanna get things out from way down inside me. the feeling of passion is gone. passion dun die. but i tell u.. its going away.. its extinguishing fast.. n its gonna die.

Fairytales..

3:05 PM

high school musical

I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!! omg.. hahaha!!! this is the dance that i love lots!! oh.. PLEAZE GO WATCH THE SHOW IF U HAVE NOT WATCHED IT!!! its great!!

Fairytales..

9:19 AM

alrights.. i can't seem to do this right. i will get it someday!!! muahahahhaa!!!

Fairytales..

11:40 PM

i realise-
that even if it was ment to be,
it will never be.
no matter how much i pray to want it,
the power that HE have,
will never bring us together.

i've finally found you.
but its all gonna end.
it had never stared anyway.
it should be easy for me to let u go, right?
i just can't forget about u somehow.

my story is exactly like romeo n juilet.
the only thing different is that,
i dun poison myself.
i'll probable bleed to death.

we are very far apart.
too far to even see each other.
i wish to only touch u.

but u see.
it will never happen.

i will try to forget u somehow.

Fairytales..

2:00 AM

a song that will explain everything...

When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night A
t the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love...

Fairytales..

10:57 AM

morning...

its a nice cool day man!!! good for sleeping!! but know what?!?! the day just started. its like only 1052am now man!! n i m gonna go work in an hours time. hmm.. say i will be working so happily than i will come home n say darn it!! its piano on monday. somehow i dun feel the urgency this week for piano. i think i m too complacent. over?!? hmm. say over failing my exam. how about it man!? oh wells. i think i will just have to do scales at the very least today! n pieces?? hmm.. i m okay with pieces. only the last piece i got 5/30! how interesting! where the passing mark is say 20?! n oh... my 1st piece hit 20!! YEAH!! like FINALLY man!!

its the 24th today! yeah!!! that means i m getting my pay soon!! HOHO!! hmm... i will be working so many days next week!! kill me!! not that i dun like but hey.. I GOT fugging PIANO TO DO! crap! i will be at GWC, SUNTEC and in SENTOSA! oh wells. its crazy man! hmm... i hope it will be a good day today at work! pouts.

night..

yupp. still yawning. hmmm. i know about people not being passionate at the same thing. or rather, they do not have the same level of passion. but i just can't get the fact of my head! i always want my team to be passionate with netball n play to their best! not that they don't. but hey. i m getting fustrated. ppl just dun see it. oh wells. i think this is only my point n it is really rubbish lar! oh man!

work was alright. very tiring tho. hmm.. i really love the coffee buzz. yummy. yupp. n I SOLD A MERLIONSTER TODAY!!! n its the 1st at GWC! yeah!!! n sold by ME! woo hoo~ hmm... the family is nice ppl!! n i took photo!! yes!!! pic of the merlionster which i can't seem to put online now!! grr!! everythingy is pissing me off! i guess its the PMS thingy n the fact that its sunday tomorrow!! n monday is like a stone throw away!!! GRR!

Fairytales..

11:45 PM

yesterday night...
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i was darn bored n i only let this one person know!! n that person being so so so nice to ENTERTAIN me!! haha!! thanks!! seriously, he used the web cam n show me his room.. talked to me on msn. both by mic n by typing.. its fun!! really! hmm.. i wasn't tired at all. tho i yawned many many times n he is so not suppose to hear it. oh wells. he heard it!! hmm... hes pretty lame. but funny. the wonders of having a friend for such a ''long'' time. oh wells. thanks again boy!! =))

today..
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went out with mummy n kelda to have hor fan!! GOOD LUNCH MAN!!! i kinda remembered about sum church ppl! but oh wells. i dun really care now! hmm.. then head down to town to shop!!! n i was shopping n shopping n shopping!! mummy did not buy anything. kelda did not too. i bought like the zara top. but i duno y i buy it also. [as what i said in the last entry.. i think its a totaly waste money. tho i can wear it to sentosa for work next week. but mayvina thinks to wear sleeveless to work its very weird n i kinda agree with her.!! oh man!!]i need to lose weight! (random) yup. then went to OP n get the skirt that i always wanted!! yeah!!! but its like MY money!! n then went over to fox n got this really nice top!! mom choose it for me!! n was about to pay for me!! but know what?!?! i paid in the end. its not really nice to ask mumy to pay when i m getting my pay right?!?! then went to look for mayvina at BnJ. =)) mayvina rocks!

to mayvina.. dun be sad lar.. okay.. ur not sad.. its just a periodical change n time. oh wells. it will be over.. hmm.. maybe just think of me n it will help!??!? hahahah!!! (mayvina taught me a way to look slimer.. gosh!! so gonna try!!)

OH!!!! i met jesslyn n fiona goh today at taka stadium!! hmm.. the 1st thing i told fiona was.. u still owe me ten bucks!! HAHAHAH!! sorry gal.. thats the only thing i can remember when i see u!! :P.. bao qian man!!

love working. but know what?? i can't work from the 17th already!!! school will start!! n not only that!!! piano exam is SO SO fugging near!! n i m like so so so so gonna do well!??!? hmmm... i think i will.. oh wells. better not say!!

i m working tomorrow!! how interesting!! oh.. i m also gonna work in sentosa on the 28th!!1 YEAH!finally. n suntec on the fri!?!? oh man!!! i really dun wan lor!! n doing closing somemore!! oh n know what!?!? janice gave me a very good advice.. ITS FUGGING DIRTY THERE!!!! tknx janice!! i think lav n me gonna have a BIG HARD time!! oh wells. i hope everything turns out right this cuming week!!! piano is the NUMBER ONE THING i gotta complete tomorrow!!! crap! haven been practising! grr.....

Fairytales..

6:35 AM

its a good day again! oh wells. when ever don't need to do piano, it will be a good day!! HAHAHA! oh man!! its friday tomorrow! OMIF!!! yes yes!! how ar! my mum not working tomorrow also man!! this is terrible! i m going shopping n i think i will get that zara top! hmm.. i duno if i should get it. i think i will wear out right? at least i hope i do. its a very pretty top. very good for wearing to sentosa! but how many times i go sentosa in a year lar?! n i dun like to get burnt!

the netball team will be participating in this years milk run! do come down for this very special event dedicated to youths n families! do join in the fun on the 2nd of july! this will be my very first milk run with a whole large group of people! i m very happy! i hope every body will be down!!?!?oh man!!

PESTA SUKAN!!! yah! so gonna take part! i think we can do it!! oh man!!! with cat as centre for the LAST time!! n i got new players to replace serene for the time being n i hope i can play. i duno man!!! somehow i want cat's cousins! it makes me feel better. i hope to be like hui1!!! she is GOOD MAN!!! oh no!! i need a coach!!! feel so useless! grr. if only we r treated the same way as the hockey alumni. they have a coach at least man!so angry!!!

Fairytales..

9:04 AM

the highlight of the day- BBQ AT MEL'S!!!

the funny thing about having bbq with this grp of ppl is that they dun exactly know what their doing. i m serious. no one knows how to start fire. i duno how some people BBQ the marshmellow till it was on fire. n its very funny cuz i know how to start fire but i used 43 fire starters altogether for the entire BBQ. HAHAHHAHA!!! okay. i m shi pai. but i m serious. its for 2 hrs!! n 43 fire starters. the fire ALWAYS die!! n there is this gust of wind that blows towards me. n the BBQ pit is not place at the right place. n its really funny! just real funny! HAHAHA!!

tho the BBQ was fun. there is one prob.. carmen n jo did not go. jo did not msg me eh!!! why?!!?! n so sad men can't go eh! oh man!! oh wells. hmmm. it will be more fun if we have them around!! :)) oh.. there is this real cute puppy that ran all around. ran away from the owner appearently. HAHAHA!! n there is this household cat too. but its kinda stray. it has a collar w/o tag. n its at the BBQ area the entire time.

never go to mels place for BBQ again!!! i bought the essential stuff for the BBQ!!! like charcoal n blah blah!! oh man!!! tell me that mel's efficient!! hmm... i love BBQs.. but i promise.. i will not start fire again.!! hahaha!! n i will be tai tai for the next BBQ. i realise that i dun eat alot for BBQ eh. i duno y. i m hungry now. n tired too. oh man!! its like.. i have been tired ever since 2pm lar! oh no!!

oh...!!! met sarah today!! HAHAHAHA!!! know what?? she bought me a really cute bag from japan!! n in the bag.. have pooh letter writing paper n stickers!! also a ball which i can fix!! i can use it for christmas!!! yeah!!! not that i have a tree! opps. oh wells. i m working on friday!! yeah!!! n somehow i have to go collect money from ppl for the milkrun!!!

OH!!!! DAWN GONNA JOIN THE NETBALL TEAM!!! oh well.. i mean she already joined the team. i haven got the chance to let the team know. oh man!! oh wells. i think they will be fine with her around eh?!?! hahaha!!! somehow.. there is so many players but there isn't enough jersey. hmm.. lets see.. i had many jerseys b4 n now is jersey n recruitment prob!! OH MAN!! i so totally duno what i m doing man!!!

I M STRESSED WITH PIANO!!! not that i m really doing it man!! okay.. lets see. i will be hoping to get 90 marks for my next lesson. i hope to get man!!! n KNOW WHAT??!?! i m getting FATTER!!! i m so not gonna weigh myself!! I KNOW I M FATTER!! i FEEL i m fatter! HOWHOWHOW!!!i wish i pee from the butt again! just one full day of peeing from the butt will do.. that.. i will be able to lose 2kg. seriously! i really hope when i start school, i will lose weight!! argh!!! i hope netball will help me too! okay.. i think i will bring my team for physical the next time we meet up. HAHAHA!!

good luck team!!!

heres a pic of cheryl's niece.. she looks REAL scary! n guess her age!

this is veronica. she is TEN!! n she is punie!! real punie..!!

Fairytales..

12:12 AM

JJ CAME TO GWC BNJ TODAY!!!! N JUNYANG TOO!!! N I SERVE JJ!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!

hmm.. hes quite okay looking eh. haha. tho with the huge glasses on.. i still can reconigse him! hahaha!! oh wells. mayvina is so hateing me! cuz she did not get to see JJ!! hoho! sorry dear! hmm.. like what sammy say.. the opportunity is infront of me n i did not go for it. to take photo lar! dun think otherwise! oh man!! wasted! dad said i should take photo with him too! oh man!! but i so dun dare lor! if only mayvina was there, mayb i will lar. hahaha!!

Fairytales..

11:06 AM

SHOUT OUTS!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUBY!!!!!

ALEX!!! WORK HARD!!!! i m here to support u!!

GOOD WORK THERESIAN!!! we got 3rd placing larr!! hahaha!!

WELL DONE JASMINE!!!! congrets on ur full marks for chem paper!

I MISS U!!!! oh wells.. not mentioning names here!!

:))

Fairytales..

8:35 PM

Dumberdole from harry potter or rather JK rowling mentioned in one of the harry potter book before that only when someone sleep n starts to dream, they r truely themself. they have the power to be themself. the self where when they are awake, they can't be at all because of the evil cold world. u may want to say ''i m myself when i m awake.' yes.. you r urself but hey.. there is this one bit of self that u hide away from others. even with ur true friends, parents, loved one, or even the one that u say knows u the best! think about it.

i seriously think that besides in your sleep n when u dream, there is another place when ur awake u r truely yourself. yes. the toilet. this may seem funny, but hey.. truthfully, i realise that the toilet is a place where ppl r themselves.

put aside the fact that when ppl visits the toilet, it is only for peeing n shitting n if they have a bathroom, to shower as well. put this aside. lets get down a little deeper. when one visits the toilet to pee.. they r themselves. they will wonder.. ''hey.. i m so fat.. gosh, i have TUMMY!!! oh man!!! gotta lose weight!!'' see.. however, when they go out, they will tell their friends, ''hey.. i m fat man!!'' n their friends will reply, ''no your not.'' not that they wanna comfort u. its just that u yourself hide your fats behind those shirts. no one can see it or feel it except yourself. see what i mean?!?!

if you r still not convinced, let me give u another illustration. where, in your house is the place you can turn to when u need a ''shoulder'' to lie on?? some may say their bedroom. some will say the hall, but as for me, its the toilet. let me further explain this.

i m a super duper emotional person. the slightest thing will make me cry the entire day. where can i go man?!?! i can't go to my room. cuz my parents will see me cry. i head straight to the toilet. no one can go in there n ask '' why r u crying'' or rather ''so big already still cry!! whats there to cry about''. when i go have some of myself to myself, the toilet is a good place cuz it tells me that i can do whatever i want. nobody will exactly care. think about it. i m sure u did ask someone ''what r u doing in the toilet man'' n they will reply ''what do u think lor'' this is it. when i cry, my parents ask the question, i will tell the model answer! thats simple!! so what do u reckon?? m i right?!?!

its a place in my home, i realise that i can TRUELY be me. me me me me!! no one bothers because its a ''duh'' thing of why someone is in the toilet. what else can they do man! i feel at ease whenever i m done from the toilet. be it shitting, peeing, bathing or crying. ask my house toilet bowl, they heard it all, smelled it all,undersood it all. ask the basin too. they see ME all.

think about it.. =)

btw. my netball team took part in the 30hrs street netball on the 17th june to 18th june. we almost got into the 2nd round. oh wells. we got 3rd placeing in out group. good job guys! we will work hard towards pesta sukan!

Fairytales..

12:35 AM

today is the start of the 30hrs netball game! omg! this is super interesting. now.. there is a break for our team. THERESIANS ROCKS!!! actually, its catherines cousins rocks. i dun think we will win the teams if not for them. oh man!! i wish i can by hui zhen! we can win nike spheres! oh man!!! did sumthing wrongly n we lost by 7 goals. oh wells. so close to wining. we need to win the remaining teams to qualify for the 2nd round! know what time the next game is??? 340AM!! yes. ur looking at the right numbers. three-fourty AM. oh wells. haha!! i m not playing!!! i get my beauty sleep!haha!

oh talking about that. hmm.. its already sunday n know what? i haven do piano homework yet! oh no!!! i m in dead shit!! hahaha!! i think i will go sleep n do at around 3 or 4. can't afford to do it tomorrow. hmm.. worst comes to worst, i tell her i can't finish?!?! actually, its pretty alot. really. its stress learning piano! DON'T LEARN PIANO IF UR THINKING OF IT! its STRESSFUL! n moreover, y do u wanna learn piano when the education system in singapore is already crazy? not just singapore lar. in the world too. n education is more impt then external ya!??! yes. thats what i m trying to say.

i m so far back for piano. as much as i wanna play n do well in it. know what? i can't. i had already screwed it in the 1st place n its hard to recover now. the wounds will never seal up. i have to admit that i m just not gonna make it. but then again.. i have to make it. i have have have have to make it! oh man! this is really DREADING!

i need my sleep. i duno y. but i m really tired. as much as i wanna use my brains, i can't. also, my parents r still not home yet. i duno what time they will be home. i dun wanna wait. but its like, if i wait, i will want to be on the comp or read comics but not to do my piano. somehow i feel guilty for not doing my piano. but i really know that i had a slow start n i will not make it to the end. its kinda knowing i m gonna fail, y still do it. waste time only. oh wells. Y M I HAVING THIS KINDA THINKING?!?!?!? slap me HARD plz!

netball recruitment crisis~ i still dun have any replies for it man!! u see. i knew it will happen. so much for wanting to recruit ppl. my netball team is good. i know its good. my horoscope is freaky today. oh wells.

Fairytales..

6:29 PM

I GOT NETBALL RECRUITMENT CRISIS!!!

IF U CAN:
- PLAY NETBALL OR AT LEAST CATCH A BALL,
- PHYSICALLY FIT, (can run long distance n stuff)
- COMMITTED TO PLAY NETBALL,
- ONLY TO PLAY FOR ONE TEAM,(thats my team)
- ABLE TO TURN UP FOR 85% OF THE TRAININGS!!!(training r on sat mornings. may differ sometimes)
- FEMALE N AGE AT LEAST 15 AS OF JAN 1ST.

PLEASE JOIN THE TEAM.
THERESIAN NETBALL ALUMNI NEEDS YOU!!
WE ARE DOING MASSIVE RECRUITMENT!!!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE..... DROP ME A TAG OR MAIL ME!! PLZPLZPLZ!!!
THANK YOU!

Fairytales..

7:08 PM

HELLO!!!! good day!! hahahah!!!now got so many things to blog but NO time! oh man!!! time crisis!

know what?!?! JAMIE CULLUM CONCERT IS GOOD!!! ahahahha!!! oh wells. hes not bad a performer n singer!! hehe!

Fairytales..

9:30 AM

I M OFFICIALLY REGISTERED WITH MOE!!!I M A RELIEF TEACHER!!! (aham... put on the waiting list!! yupp. only when school needs teachers, they will ring me up if they think i can make it. oh man!!)

GENERALLY:
Its a GOOD day again today!!! someone will make it better!! hahahhaa!!! but oh man!! oh wells. i pray n i hope.

wishing upon a bright shining star!!

Fairytales..

6:49 PM

hmm.. the title will NOT link to whatever i got to say. but oh wells. mayb a little. hahaha!! natasha sent me this i duno what thing n i opened it n tada~ my comp hang. omg. oh wells. never be curious.

my this entry is to say how much i really look up to people who have a go at words. words r simple. many words in the world. but some people can really ''create'' words. not literally. i mean, use words in a way that it indirectly say about a situation. i really can't master that man! but oh wells. these people r OMG! they r good with words! i love it. sometimes i think, their life will be really complicated cuz of the way they put things. but oh wells. indirectly saying about things. hahaha. i really can't do that man! they r so so good at it! okay. know what?i m repeating what i m typing.hahaha! u got my point didn't u?

i still love the times when we r together. u can't lie to me cuz the photos says so. i miss u lots.

being really random if u realise. its a wonderful day today. i can't wait to go out.. then to work. not that i really look forward to it.. but heyy.. its the time when i go out, hang out, earn $$ and get some exposure to life! :)) everyday being at home, facing the black thing n reading only the tao gays will drive me to my grave. but yesterdays lesson was alright. it was good actually. except for sometimes where i felt like crying cuz i realise that adults don't practise what they preach. n thats a sad thing cuz i will be an adult soon. too soon actually. when i turn 18, i figured i m halfway there. mayb more then halfway.

adult life is full of responsibilities. they use to say.. I WANT TO BE A KID AGAIN!! i never understand why ppl love to be a kid. grown ups r better ya? but hey.. i m wrong. so so wrong. being a kid is getting whatever u want. the only duty n responsibility a kid have is to study hard and get good grades. is that so difficult?it was for me. if not.. y do u think i will be in this line now? i route is like cut short by years but hey. is it worth it? is it good? i m taking a big risk in my career. does anyone realise that i m regrating? hoping to redo what i did n to do it well this time round? nope. everyone envys me instead. they want to go the route i took. they want to be me. finish my studies fast n get on with a career. so much as i wanna teach. its really lifts up to the phrase: ''so near yet so far"

oh wells. this is my life story. i met, i came, i went. its history now. all i want now is someone to exactly understand. like you. :)

ps. i m not sad or anything. just something that i wanted to say for a long long time now. no worries eh? smile

in the night!!
tonight, i learnt a very important lesson. lead a simple life. complicated life will get u no where near happiness but near trouble. live to be happy. why want to lead a complicated life man? life is beautiful. hahaha!! when i know the ones i love are happy, i m happy. it sounds so naive eh? but hey. i m serious. try being patient for a day with everything. be like a child. question things n think far. dun think that kids dun think far. they do. sometime, the qn they ask, i will not know the answer. sounds stupid? ya.. its true! :)) as what it is said, be a kid n be with god. yes. only the innocent will go up to heaven. lower urself to a kid. u will find life really meaningful. n this world will be a much much better place!! trust me. try it. :))

i want to be with u. live life simply and u will understand the true meaning of life. just one day!! okay?!!?

Fairytales..

1:58 PM

i got the photos!!! :))

sammy's creation.

the moo moo family b4 big moo moo died. haha~

okay.. hmm... LOOK AT MY MINI CONES!! its great eh?!?! n sammy's gf!??!

Fairytales..

10:15 PM

omg.. tomorrow is PIANO day. tho dad says dun listen TOTALLY to what that F has to say, just listen and do better. just have a clear conscious can le.! haiz.. still dun feel good about it. what about lieing to myself n say that i will do well for this year, sit for my exam and then i dun have to see her face already!??! oh man!!! i feel so good. thats a LIE! -pouts- confused again lar...!! its like omg... whats up with me n her?? ba zi bu he!! hehe

i tell u ah!!! the england n paraguay match is BORING!!! really. i watch the sweden and TnT play is SO much better. its like.. there is team spirit and stuff. there is the wanting to WIN! omg. MY TEAM IS BACK!!! hahaha!! not really lar. still feeling confused about the team. but yesterdays trng is FUN! its a little funny cuz ANISSA IS BACK n SHE DID NOT TELL ANYONE!!! technically, if i dun see her online, she will not tell me she's back. which also mean.. she will not go for trng. hahaha!!!

i got nothing to blog larr. hahaha!! i m just happy n sad n scared! too much things to say actually! i m still waiting for mayvina to give me the address so i can go take the photos!! yeah yeah!!

Fairytales..

2:01 AM

i only feel like blogging. actually, i dun even feel like doing anything! i wanna cry now man!! so fed up!! so irritated! so pissed! i duno man!! if only princess can keep me company. then again. what has it got to do with princess? shes just a cat!! OMG!

feel like a losser now! oh man!!! its like the entire world is laughing at me!! mayb they r. how would i know right?? i only know things the last min or when the thing happened for the longest time ever already! watever lar! i m suppose to play piano. but what the hell? i dun see the point playing already. 5 hrs a day!! n know what?? she is still gonna scold me cuz she will say i DID NOT practise! whatever larr! so whats the F-ing point now?!!? she is just gonna say i DID NOT practise n she's gonna complain n i WILL NOT be able to go into uni cuz of her F-ing around!

now whats the point for me to keep on giving n not receiving? whats the F-ing prob with the team man?!?! what did i do wrong to deserve this kinda thing from the team?!! the other thing is CHURCH too! thanks!! they r F-ing bitching about me now!! they r not teenagers for the matter! they r F-ing ADULTS! feel like i m taking all the F-ing shit n ppl r just laughing behind me! i m so doing things where i DON'T see the point! why m i doing so much?? y m i putting effort when ppl dun see it?!!? y m i doing so much n ppl just laugh n complain! BE MATURE PLEASE!

its such a F-ing day!! if only someone can UNDERSTAND n LISTEN to me!!

Fairytales..

6:56 PM

its like pouring buffolos n elephants outside! oh man!! its the friday already.
ppl always say Thank God Its Friday aka TIGF. but i say Oh Man Its Friday aka OMIF! its friday. means i dun have any more time to fool around. its down to PIANO!! not that i haven been doing but yup. i have to speed the process up already! pouts.

yesterday night at BnJ was OMG! there was SO little fans. i was BORED to death. n was making mini cones. hoho. shh. yes. then was having lots of fun taking photos when suddenly.... piang!!!! the BIG MOO MOO broke!! oh man!!! janice is sad but she said its okay! hahahaha!!! mayvina told me to hold it by the tail. i did that a it broke. actually not yet lift the moo moo. hayo!!! watever lar!hahahaha!! i m waiting for mayvina's photos!! love them lots!

as i said.. today is a chong day. i haven do piano homework man!! i m killed..i m dead.. i m oh man!!!

Fairytales..

11:00 PM

know what?? i woke up super duper late today!! feel so tired n lousy!! oh man!! i woke up at 10am!! thats so so late!! shhh.. dun let my parents know. opps. hahaha! did piano after. from 1030 till 1130. then watch croc hunter diary then lazy town. hahaha! then went to shower n then to piano again at about 145pm. did major minor scales n 3rds apart in 15mins!!! hows that man!! hmm.. then did 6th apart for the 1st page out of 3 pages. hate 6th apart. oh wells. did master my A n B list! happy kid!! :)) now its the Clist n 6th apart n sight reading! -groans-

hmm... i m working today again!! yesterdays work was a little slow. actually, its not a little. its really slow! like real real slow! i think i prefer GWC. but in cathay, there is this cute ang moh!! omg!! hahaha!! his name is fred! oh wells. he is going back to america tomorrow. so yupp. hahaha!!! mom took pix with him tho! :))

its gonna be a tiring day again today! i m meeting lavinia in ten mins to go to starbucks to study.
she will study her IT applications n i will study my PIANO!! do i have a life??!!argh! oh wells. its gonna be piano piano n more piano for the longest time ever. hmm.. mayb till school starts. then u will have to read a lot about my school life n little on BnJ! (not that i mentioned LOTS about BnJ anywayz!haha) yupp.. then its off to cathay to work. yawns. thanks to him to msg me yesterday to keep me company! if not i will be bored to death man!! oh.. yesterday i gave this cup of 4.8 oz of ice cream!! its like so so so way off man!!! the correct weight is 3oz lar! OMG! okay.. hahaha!!!

i hope its gonna be an exciting day ahead. the time is passing so so fast! oh no!! its like.. i don't have the time to play piano!! i hopw she does not nag on monday man!! i wanna go uni so yupp. i want her to shut her F***-ing mouth up! opps. too much adjectives used!! hahaha!!

i wanna go watch just my luck n she's the man n over the hedge!! oh man!! whats up with me!?!?! oh wells. i hope to actually go for the jamie cullum concert with tat person. but oh wells. i think i will have to go with someone else. if my parents finds out.. muahahaha!!! there goes my life! its 4 more days to D**** Day. so yupp. wish me LUCK! oh.. n i m back to comics!! yeah!!! :))

I MISS JANICE!!!! working at cathay got me 3 cuts, scald by hot water and OMG! i dun like it any bit!!! i want GWC!! i MISS JANICE!!! pouts. yes!! i m working there tomorrow!!! argh!!! happy happy happy!!! :)) actually i learn alot at cathat too. like telling ppl to buy banana split instead of mix n match!! hahahaha!!! love the split!! deana does banana DICE! gosh!! oh.. she is my KELLOCK FRIEND!!!! no wonder she looks really familiar! oh no!! haven pay her money!!! HAHAHAH!!! sorry darr! i will when i meet u eh?!!?!? hehehe!!!

ITS GWC DAY TOMORROWW!!!!! happy me!! grins!

Fairytales..

8:45 PM

i just met lavinia. had a pretty long chat with her!! hoho. its like very very long since we talked lar!! n know what?!?!? LAVINIA KNOWS JEREMY!!! as in cousin. HAHAHA!!! n know iggi too. but not so much of iggi. just jeremy. its a small world afterall... its a small world afterall.. its a small small world!!(singing)! how interesting eh? its like we r linked but not? HAHAHA!!! jeremy!! y u take small girl's number?!?! hoho! okay.. lavinia says to put down my schedule. erm.. today 630-11pm. tomorrow 430-11pm. OH NO!!! i m so screwed. woke up late today n HAVEN do piano. n steve irwin is in 15mins time. n i m like so so so dead lar!! oh wells. HAHAHA!! just laugh it off for now i guess.. : ))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO aunty sue.. sarah lee.. and aunty ivy! its not a good day to have birthdays but oh wells.

okay.. announcement!!

hi all.. the annual milk run is here again!! milk run has been a national youth day event since 2001 that integrated disadvantage and mainstream youth in a celebration of promise and vitality. please do come down. spend time with the kids and be part of the community run! its gonna be a great day! donate 10 bucks n u get a goodie bag which includes a shirt and with that 10 bucks, u help many kids. these kids are working hard to run for this very special day. its on the 2nd of july. 10 bucks maybe a lot of money for u to give but it is more for the kids. do let me know if u want to join in the run. alternatively, u can donate 10bucks n dun run. u still do get the goodie bag.. hahaha!! oh.. if u dun wish to donate, its alright. but do come down to be part of this wonderfully meaningful event. see ya there on the 2nd of july 2006 at zouk carpark between 1pm-6pm!! :))
this event is organised by Beyond Social Services and part of MILK.

Fairytales..

11:05 PM

right. its yet another really exciting-ly boring day. gosh!! i m like.pouts. anywayz, i m looking forward to an exciting time playing my piano. how interesting eh? right. i also have been frequently visiting my favourite place where no one sees exactly what i m doing. hoho.! love that place. but.... i only love it when its the home one. ANYWAYS! i m crapping my way for this entry. somehow or rather, i feel like i m caged up to do something where i dun really like to do. hmm.. mayb i will do it if i have other things to do at the same time. oh wells.

i've got a question. do u believe in horoscope?! is it good to believe or not? its seems pretty accurate tho. hoho.oh wells. as what affair say.. take it as a guide. i m working tomorrow at cathay at 630 i think. but will be working till pretty late. i don't want to go cathay!!! -pouts- i m working like 3 consecutive days lar! gosh!! i think i will die on monday! i m like aching all over now! like LITERALLY aching ALL over! but i still want training. i so hope everyone will come for training lar! i m gonna miss cat man!!! without her is a little weird. the point is, i dun know what to do with the team. i m so dependent on her man!! mayb cuz she talks to martens n know what is needed. oh wells.

think of matens, i think of my sec 3 days. gosh. its terrible. with her as my english teacher, i m very very scared of her! somehow, i did well for my o levels for english! so yupp. i m happy but i m still scared of her. right. what so scary about her right? erm. lets just say her tone and her level of sarcasm?!! yes! thats SCARY! i will never forget the times when i talk to her. i freak out. inside. hahaha!! i duno man. when cat is in london. how will i survive?!?!? grr! should just ask hannah to do it. hoho.

alright. i just have to face it right? i mean.. its like just ms martens. right right?? -breathe- okay.. chill man!! lets talk about work. yes.. i duno what will happen to me tomorrow. but i know for today iots piano piano piano. i will have to do homework tonight. then my reward will be GREY'S ANATOMY!! hahaha!! i m happy that theres that show! -grins- yuppyupp. then tomorrow will be piano again. but i think i will be playing short pieces. then will be off to work at i think530? i m working 630. should i take free shuttle? duh.. whats there to consider man? off course free shuttle lar! okay. i m SO talking to myself ya?! oh wells. somehow i dun wanna go to work tomorrow. oh no!! n i think i dun have shirt!! how about that man?!?!

i m looking forward to milkrun!! cool! this time, the team will be involved!! yeah!!! n most of them donating 10 bucks!! yeah!!! i m a happy kid! right. ignore me again please! i just got the spreedsheet from matha. thanks. but i duno how to print with lines! argh!! i m looking forward to training!!! yesyes!! as what hannah say.. the TEAM is back!!! woo hoo~~

Trying hard to reach out.But when I tried to speak out.Felt like no one could hear me.Wanted to belong here.But something felt so wrong here.So I prayed I could break away
[Chorus:] I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky.And I'll make a wish.Take a chance.Make a change.And breakaway.Out of the darkness and into the sun.But I won't forget all the ones that I love.I'll take a risk.Take a chance.Make a change.And breakaway.

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11:21 PM

heyy. i haven been blogging again! oh wells, i m so tired these days. haven really sleep actually to think of it. hahaha!! i came home yesterday pretty late. then talk to affir till 2 plus i think. then by the time i say prayer, wash up, arrange my bed, oh no!! its 3 plus. n know what? i got to wake up so early for trng today. thank god hannah woke me up. if not, hahaha!! the cap is not down for trng!?!?

today's trng was fun. pretty tiring actually. jo did not go down. she was dead in the bed! no worries jo. next trng be there eh?!?! also saw the person that mayb ms mak n i wanted to see. yes. bibi n the family. they seem to be doing pretty alright. bibi grown up alot. she is more mature now. tho its just the back of he that i saw, also i did not talk to her. but i guess she is more grown up now. also thanks to martha who tells me a little!!:)) oh yes. training! very fun! haha!! i run i run!!! yes yes!! i m so excited! tho i did not do much running and catching. but i did run!! n i just realise that my left leg power is hahaha!! shhh... anywayz, its pentacost sunday today! what m i doing at home man!! oh.. hannah took cab to fetch me n cherie. after training, we went to have light lunch! had 2 prata- one with egg n one without. n so did cherie n violet. n ms mak?!?!? oh wells. just sitting there enjoying the fun n wanting to sleep (as usual) and finally got a cup of drink. haha. if only jo came down eh!next week i will be expecting more people to be down! lets say.. me, cherie, ms mak, jo, serene, yanling, hannah, alicia, violet? all in fact with one new comer and hmm.. cat n anissa not in town? hahaha!! actually, my team is not that bad eh? oh wells.

today sunday! oh no! tho tomorrow i do not have piano lesson, i STILL dread mondays! i so have to make use of my time WELL! oh no!! anywayz, ms mak went home n I SAW PRINCESS!! such a beauty! but know what? she is a house cat now. not that she used to be stray. but she use to LOVE going out n stuff. not, when ms mak carry her, she just struggles and go back into the house! oh no!! next week she say she will bring princess for trng. hahaha!! YES YES!! princess! hoho.

i need my scoope of happiness! (according to lavinia which i TOTALLY agree) hahaa!! i think its really addictive eh! i need cherry gracia! oh.. i think i also need oatmeal!! thanks wo mayvina, i m totally addicted to oatmeal! oh wells. i need to sleep! i m very tired after yesterday n todays training. i duno y m i so tired after todays trng. its not really tiring i find. but i m just tired! oh.. whatever. just ignore me again!

y does everyone only remember the bad n terrible side of someone? why does everyone always forget to see the bright n good side of them? they say, always look on the bright side of life. how to when most human beings r looking and remembering only the bad side and wanting to gain sympathy? every action starts with oneself. let the word and action of looking at the bright side be spread amongs us. and soon, the world will be a brighter place.

Fairytales..