confused!

know what? i m really totally confused! i feel lyk crying. i dun noe! i dun feel myself anymore! its juz.. so not me! anyways, i just wanna SCREAM!!! its like.. everything just goes wrong today. people putting words into my mouth. people getting pissed off with me. people that i so dun understand! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! i don't know what to do. i advise people. but in return, people have to advise me. wth is up with me man? its just that i have lots of anger in me noe. i only can write... or rather type it out. its a sunday already. not tired at all. only feel that i am so dead! monday is approaching. i am scared. to think about it, y do i have to ask her things? y do i have to get her approval to do things?

anyway. went church. bryan is so smart. i think he is better with me. as in.. i think he trust me. a little thick skin but yupp. i duno. i think he is different with the mum around. i miss hanging out with those church ppl. i dunno y but yupp. they r fun ppl to be with but.. yupp. juz have to be sure that i dun get into what pam got into.

seems lyk i got so much to blog today. dun understand man! argh! i m just having this emptiness that i m feeling. very weird. feel like going to bed but at the same time, i now that if i go to bed, i will not have a good sleep cause i will be worrying on my piano stuff. mayb also that i have had coffee just now in church.

well anywayz, i gtg.. this is life. i think i will just need to accept it. i miss Jas.. btw.. i mass msg to netballers juz now. know what?? no one replied! THANK YOU!