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Sunday, August 08, 2010

6:02 AM

Hello world....

its been some time since I last blog. well, its already been abt 7 weeks, moving into the 8th week. So many things happened and yes, i don't know where to begin.

I guess, some part of me is still in melbourne even though it has been 7 week since I left that country. I missed it terribly. somehow, I find myself, time and time again, replaying the scenes when I was in melb. From the very time I left Singapore, praying hard that my relationship with Jasmine will not fall apart because of the trip, to the time that I landed in Melb airport at a God forsaken hour to wanting to visit what is left of the wonders of God's creation to meeting Mark and spending time with him and his family. Again, there is no way to describe how much I miss that place and my feelings right now.

Today, its the 6th month we are together and I thank God for every moment I have with u. Somedays, I just think that we will never make it thru this distance and it pains me so badly. But when I see you every night on web, somehow, I am reminded again and again that there is nothing that can come inbetween us. Not even the distance apart, and that it is God who is helping us through every single day. I thank God for this special relationship I have with you and I never want it to end.

Apart of me is still in Melb and this is bad... it is so so bad. I can't seem to forget the streets, the time I was there, the food, the stupid things jas and I did, the drive, the tour and just being a bummer at home. Coming back, this 6 weeks of school past so fast. I can't remember how I went through school so quickly. I can't really remember what I did.....I am going to NIE in about a month's time and yes... this is something new, something challenging and I am scared. I am afraid that I will fail again in the Singapore Education system. I am afraid that I will not do well and that is it for my life, doing nothing and being no one.

The only cure to this breaky heart is to get me a ticket to Melb. I miss every part of it. I can't decide if it is a want or a need to get out of Singapore. Maybe this is not the place for me... I don't know.

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