you're a mystery yourself

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

7:56 PM

I've been in the thinking mood recently. not that I don't think, but I have been thinking just a little bit more than usual. What have I been thinking about? Just about everything under the sun.

What bothers me most now is my career. The uncertainty is driving me INSANE! yes.. insane. As the days goes by, I just hold lesser hope in getting any answer. I will not have been hurt so badly if I did not put so much expectations in the first place. isn't that what i have learnt? together with the experience I had 6 years ago, that should have made me smarter. guess what? it did not. such a disappointment.

Amist all the troubles I've been facing in life- the school work, the need and want to give only the best to all the students, the want to have a better future and to also prove a point to others that there are still teachers who ARE teachers, I have found someone whom I can call mine. Gone are the days where I will scrub the floor at starbucks and call it my loyal white donkey and the sink my prince charming. Now, I've found the real one.

God played a big role in this. Thank you Lord.

The time we spend together are just wonderful memories that I cannot forget. The time that we are physically apart, that is driving me crazy. Tho i have booked the tickets, I very much want to go over now. It is totally crazy!! I was just thinking, how it will be like when I finally get to meet him. I think its gonna be emotional for the both of us. *control chermaine control* Was reading a book the other day. I always knew that the physical touch can help "cure" a person or to speed up the person's recovery. I guess its the same theory. I am not ill.. I don't need a surgery, but the thought of not being able to hug someone goodnight, to feel the brush on the skins and to even hold hands is a little bit too much to handle.

With these, I learn.. it is the little things we do in life, just to help each other feel better. you will never understand. The extend that we go for each other, just to make sure that we are fine in everyway possible. you, will never be able to comprehend. And as I pray everynight, I hope.. that it will stay this way forever. *very fairytale-ish I know*

Remember.. it is the little things we do in life, that makes a big difference to everything. the theory is simple, if you start recycling all ur unwanted papers, the earth will get cooler each year. Same with relationships. Boy, am I glad that I met you.

I am ready to take what life challenges has for me. For I know, I am not doing this alone. I will never be alone.

Fairytales..

Find out soon

Amanda
Amanda Wang
Anne
Candice/AFFAIR!
Catherine
Christine
Clara
CuiLing
DifRays/MYLOVE!
Eliza
GWC
Hilda
Jasmine/DarlinK
Pamgoh
Puff
Sijie
Samuel
ShuYi
Vivian
Xinyi
XJ
Yin Kwan

designer joy.deprived
fonts&brushes x x x
images x
image hosting x
software
Adobe Photoshop CS3, Macromedia Dreamweaver 8.0

- please keep the credits AS THEY ARE :] thankyou.