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Sunday, March 16, 2008

2:53 AM

the emo kid is back to update. and i'm serious abt this. i'm feeing rather emo right now. so the post is emo-ish. dun like emo stuff? dun read it then.

so.. what m i up to lately? well, school, piano lessons and BnJ. thats about it. i can't to sleep right now. i'm pretty much awake actually. mayb its the venti caramel mach i had during work just now.

i've been thinking of this particular situation lately. mayb it was just me thinking too much. but yes.. every trip to my students house can be pretty scary. why? the trip there is already so so long and yes.. during the long long trip, many sad things happened socially. WHICH i find it very painful to watch. anyway, the long trip to my student's place gave me ample time to think of the situation that i'm currently in and yes.. i think THINK i've fig it all out. and.. sigh, it brings me back to square ONE thank you very much! so.. i've decided to write on my blog and tell this someone. in hope that this someone will read it someday, somehow. and i pray...

hey you,
i've decided to write this on my blog so that maybe one day u will read n totally understand because i have no freaking guts to tell u any of this. i hate it so much when i dun hear from u. and its all a lie that i've moved on. actually, no. i've moved on. but not completely. i still (fine!! -.-) think of u. this may sound silly but yes. i still think of u. and it hurts all the time to pretend infront of ppl that nothing is really going on. both you n i know that there is something. so y r u ignoring me!? u lied to me the other time didn't u? i was silly to have done that much for u and to only know now that i'm caught in this trip which sadly, i've created for myself. so, this is just a msg for u. to let u know that ur being missed and.. and.. i want to talk to u.
i really hope u will call me soon. a msg will be good too. =) thank you!

what else can i say? i've been watching many movies. i finished step up, take the lead and princess diaries. now.. dun ask y have i got so much time to watch shows. i'm blogging at 3am! this says alot! so work tmr morning.

working at BnJ is very tiring. i mean.. all the ASL-ish stuff is really taking its toll. and esp when both sarah and i have.. i would say, pretty high expectations. i think i'm a bitch. right.. i think many ppl wil agree with me anyway. ha! wait.. so what exactly is this ASL-ish stuff i'm talking abt? one major thing i want to address is.. PEOPLE MANAGEMENT! did i tell u i hate that? i find it so difficult!!! PLUS! whats the point of having ppl part of things when they are no part of things? i never understand. whatever. i have trainings to do. oh yes.. did i also mention that i hate multiple relationships with people?! if i did not, now u know it.

so.. i'm signing off now. going to bed. its 3 am and i'm working at 1030am. mayb if i can wake up i will church. ha! i'm looking forward to tomorrow. oh yes... the days are scarying me too...

goodnight.

i've warned ya! its emo.

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