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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

3:45 AM

senario 1:
i inspire
i aspire
i dream

i m just like the flames on a candle.
i stand strong for when i face the winds.
only 3 times and i m gone.
for good.
nothing will ever regain the flames in me.
nothing will be back to its normal place
where i m on the same candle on the same wax on the same burning string.

after 3 strong winds, i m gone.
i was...
inspired,
aspired,
dreamed.

from above... a very good example is the netball team. so much i did. so much i hoped. so much i prayed. what did i get in the end?? losing everything that i once dreamed of having. overnight. my msn nick: "i am inspired and i will" no longer.

senario 2:
have u ever encounter people who are super whinny?
i once think that whinning will get me what i want.
i used to whin my guts out for everything.
now..
i only want to shut the whinning up.
immediately please!!!

i have friends who whin to get their way. it suck. tho i did it b4. whinning... i duno how to explain the goodness of whinning. i have friends who whin every single time n STILL get bfS n yes... showered with TONS of blessings! tell me the goodness of whinning please!

senario 3:
let me tell u my weeks work..
do essays,
work,
celebrate xmas,
go out with friends.

let me tell u what have i done this week..
did my essay,
worked,
celebrated xmas,
went out with friends.

what else have i not done??
oh yes.. go out with mummy.
dun wanna talk about it.
i would rather u kill me for that.
seriously.

i have done what i have to do n thats it. i m done!

senario 4:
people to please...
my parents,
my friends,
my boss,
customers,
my school work,
and most importantly- myself.

-i hate it. i m serious.i have to please my parents cuz i was such a losser in sec school who freakingly never get into JC. at least for me.. i know that i was a freaking losser!
-i have to do well at work and tada! i did... i m promoted! who do i 1st tell?? my parents! r they proud?!?! my backside! which side u want!??!
-i have to please my friends. to be someone else but me. why?? cuz the freaking world is like that!!! social acceptence my friend! i m stressed up when it comes to friends! cuz everyone is not themself... its hard n i freakingly hate it when it comes to friends who r freakingly demanding!
-my school work!! tell me about it. i m slogging my freaking ass off here... mayb not as much as any other ppl in my class... but i m trying my freaking best here to bring distinctions home. n if i really did... what will my parents say?? "y never get higher distinctions?!?!" to hell with it!
-myself!!! this is the part where i totally feel like a freaking losser!!! seriously! why!?!? look at my freaking netball team... what happened to it!?!? yes.. some ppl who r freakingly committed! thanks for standing by me ALL THE TIME! look at my school work... yah.. total disappointment! i feel like shutting off the entire world for a day or 2. i see no freaking point to give in to ppl anymore. TOTALLY POINTLESS! what do i get in the end?!?! "chermaine... can u please...","chermaine... why u did not..." shut up morons!

don't give me tags that says chill or what so ever. come up with something new for goodness sake! i feel so bitchy now! who cares!?!? do u!?!? F-ed up! dun even pity me for my life or the way i freakingly think of myself as a losser! cuz the fact is... i m not living to my own expectations! i dun even have the face to tell people how good i m doing in uni or how established i m in netball.

Fairytales..

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